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the sun was beaming bright and clear after yesterdays rain and everything was all vibrant from the water..... pulled me into it like a magnet as i walked out the door in the morning...... while visiting some tree buddies in full fall color this flock of grackles wove themselves between all the branches and leaves.. found out a grackle is a kind of black bird and you know them by their call which sounds like a rusty gate - they are really beautiful birds up close.. they're around a lot in the fall, sometimes the whole flock lands in the yard and its like black leaves moving around amidst the rest... the crows have been out a lot too and their sound is so perfectly fallish...... cycles move without pause and so swiftly, like these birds... its been one magnificent autumn so far, and the chill is setting in already... the hearth awaits its first fire as these red leaves fall, and new adventures await as the cold closes in
10.21.2019 mars in libra
libra be waning like the moon… miss venus meets mars and we're all seeing stars…… so yeah the words, like the rain right now, continue this cycle of flow……. the idea to make this here shirt came over a year ago, just before turning 42 - cuz you know, after all, in the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy, the super computer deep thought spends 10 million years processing the ultimate question - and the answer, after 10 million years of processing, is that 42 is the meaning of life, the universe and everything… so it was a feeling that it would be a big one and i'd intended to wear it all year... but the idea stayed in the queue til a week before another solar cycle came circling around
while painting it a few weeks ago, was realizing its more a marker of actually making it this far, of surviving 42 years of life (and wherever you're at thank god you made it too)……. i barely made it - got out of 41 by the ultimately miraculous grace of Nature alone - a lesson of inestimable value on the consequences of not following your Tao….. it took all of 42 just to recover from 41 and man its so totally different than i imagined yet could not be more perfect even with the wild ride with its numerous detours and wipeouts…… was sure i’d have 5 kids about now doin all kinds of things i'm not doing but what it actually is is totally rad - which is not a whole lot different than when i was a kid, just, matured… some things change some stay the same… no fuss no muss no make up no bs, get a hair cut once every 1 to 10 years make my own clothes food and anything else i can, play music mix video take pictures draw pictures make things learn things teach things grow things hug trees look at the stars listen to the wind move my limbs stay flexible hum a merry tune be kind etc... i really like to get dirty and make creative messes and i love to feel clean on the other side of it too - in this feng shui tai chi dance and romance
spent far too much time and energy being self-conscious about this body, this face, these teeth, the perceived flaws superimposed from the outside in - but compared to what ? only to get to the big duh moment seeing its all just influence or pattern and often from depths we are not aware of - genetic cultural karmic - then thru awareness, progressively working to strip off all the layers of conditioning from the outer world and the past like shedding a snake skin… sweeping it clean to the subtlest soul levels... and like the genie out of the bottle you’re free no more shit to weigh you down and squish you in to some prescribed form because its not the form anyhow its the spark inside - but you can surely enjoy it while you’re in form none the less and by all means do enjoy it - free style it in a fully conscious way because it freakin delivers some sweet fruits when well cultivated like good ground
so what is the point - well - libra maat says your heart has to be light as a feather to really fly... being an artist all i see feel hear touch know is art - like breathing no matter what its there so its how i balance the scales - and after 42 years it truly feels free… to just be… another yin particle in this super conductor that is conducting this big musical event called life... 42 most certainly provided the answer - what got learned in that solar cycle was top ranking and an epic ride, the best by far... so tonite i enjoy this most triumphant top, with a very grateful and light heart for actually making this wave
be your own truth - own your own truth - so many influences pull us away form our own path, our own Tao - it takes a long time to learn how to navigate strictly from center even when you are focused on it - be patient with yourself - remember, the still and empty center in the hub of a wheel is what makes it useful, what makes it able to move and turn and fulfill its function... keep your center, trust in life
challenges are there all the time, even when centered, how to handle them changes tho - facing things head on - not running away or complaining about dislikes or getting too attached to likes either….. just moving and flowing with whatever is, like water
anyway, its a rainy sunday night and i'm chillin and this is what came thru… tired after a big dye workout - i always end up dyeing on sundays for whatever reason - its a good day to dye - and these new colors really kick ass... to whomever may read this - shaka ! the surf is up - crystal clear 2020 inner vision makes for the ride of a lifetime - stay on your path, follow your heart, its the Way dude
10.13.2019 the moon of the falling leaves
After the heyoka ceremony, I came to live here where I am now between Wounded Knee Creek and Grass Creek. Others came too, and we made these little gray houses of logs that you see, and they are square. It is a bad way to live, for there can be no power in a square.
You have noticed that everything an Indian does is in a circle, and that is because the Power of the World always works in circles, and everything tries to be round. In the old days when we were a strong and happy people, all our power came to us from the sacred hoop of the nation, and so long as the hoop was unbroken, the people flourished. The flowering tree was the living center of the hoop, and the circle of the four quarters nourished it. The east gave peace and light, the south gave warmth, the west gave rain, the north with its cold and mighty wind gave strength and endurance. This knowledge came to us from the outer world with our religion. Everything the Power of the World does is done in a circle. The sky is round, and I have heard the earth is round like a ball, and so are all the stars. The wind, in its greatest power, whirls. Birds make their nests in circles, for theirs is the same religion as ours. The sun comes forth and goes down again in a circle. The moon does the same, and both are round. Even the seasons form a great circle in their changing, and always come back again to where they were. The life of a man is a circle from childhood to childhood, and so it is in everything where power moves. Our tepees were round like the nests of birds, and these were always set in a circle, the nation’s hoop, a nest of many nests, where the Great Spirit meant for us to hatch our children.
But the Wasichus have put us in these square boxes. Our power is gone and we are dying, for the power is not in us any more. You can look at our boys and see how it is with us. When we were living by the power of the circle in the way we should, boys were men at twelve or thirteen years of age. But now it takes them very much longer to mature.
Well, it is as it is. We are prisoners of war while we are waiting here. But there is another world.
- Black Elk
eternally grateful to the ancestors, for 23 years of living in the round once again, in another world
10.8.2019 quilted maple sky
have seen more night sky, morning sky, afternoon sky, sun rise colors, sun set colors, deep dark storm fronts, lightning bolts, star light, moon light and changing light in this year than i have in the last 10 or more... living very close to the earth and almost outside is a feeling of home like no other
rainbows rainbows everywhere! a solar return celebration in the most mellowest of ways with the sun beaming on all the colors making for a delightful day of enjoying a super clean space all lit up and peaceful and warm but not too warm and cool but not too cool - some calm connecting with kin a good meal and then some microphone looper experimentation to top off this pristine prism called the here and now
9.29.2019 sunday flute care and oracular consultations
according to the master, musical instruments which emit identical tones vibrate in response to each other - people of the same disposition seek each other out - water flows where wetness lies - fire burns where things are parched - like clouds trailing behind dragons and the wind which follows in a tiger's wake, all creatures follow with their gaze the advent of the holy sage - whatever is of celestial origin feels affinity for what lies above, things of terrestrial origin feel their affinity with what lies below - thus all things follow their own kind (9 in the 5th place - hexagram 1 - ch'ien / heaven - the creative principle)
9.25.2019 blackbirds and sunbeams
reflecting on being free as a bird... in truth... in reality... it wasn't easy but like birth the most meaningful things are uncomfortable and always require the absolute totality of our being... post equinox moment with the winged ones, trees, and sun as the gear shifts into the fall
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